This is the story behind Leah Ministries. This is my story of how I was pulled out of an abusive marriage, beaten down, w/o hope & feeling forgotten by God. I felt dirty, used & broken. I felt like whatever plan God had for me….I had definitely messed that up b/c of the choices I had made & the pit I so blindly jumped into….just like the prodigal son, who took his father’s love for granted & thought he could do better on his own. And, just like him, ran back to the Father, into His loving & waiting arms. He picked me up out of the dirt, cleaned me off, gave me a beautiful royal robe to wear, sang to me & threw a party for my safe return. He threw my sins from me as far as the east is from the west, never to remember them again!! Forgiven!! That is love!! The Lord is carrying me down this road to healing & He will carry you too!! Not long ago, He brought to my mind the story of Leah in the Bible. Most people probably don’t think much about her….she’s probably as overlooked now as she was then. But, she, like so many of us women today, just wanted to be loved & cherished by her husband. Her story, like so many of us today, was not the fairytale we dreamed about for ourselves either. So unloved….how ugly she must’ve felt that even her father felt like he had to deceive to get her married. How her heart must’ve hurt, knowing she was not her husband’s first choice. Gen. 29:31 says, “When the Lord saw that Leah was unloved….”. The original word for unloved here literally means “hated” or “felt disgust for her”. How many of us have experienced those very feelings from our husband? Then, we get to see what she named her sons, which tells us alot about what she was feeling. It got me to thinking about what all some of us do to try to “win” or “earn” a man’s love. Thinking that maybe if I do this or that, he will see how much I love him, or maybe if I do this or that, he won’t treat me like that again, or maybe if I do this or that,….he will love me. Those of us just getting out of an abusive relationship, or those of you still in one….we are not alone. How he treats us in private, when he thinks no one else sees….there is One who sees. That is the first thing the Lord wanted me to see about Leah….He saw. “When the Lord saw that Leah was unloved….”. He saw that w/ Leah, He saw that w/ me, & He sees it w/ you. It is so important that we learn our worth to God or we are in danger of letting someone else determine our value. So, this is my road to healing & can be yours too. Next time, I’ll talk about the emotions we see Leah was feeling b/c of the names she gave her boys.
“I will lift up my eyes to the hills—-from whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven & earth.” (Psalms 121:1&2)